trying to find a reason to wake up every morning.

Hey.

This tumblr is mostly my way of trying to deal with all of my negative feelings. I've been living with some kind of depression most of my life, and it's gotten significantly worse over the past year. I'm trying to use writing as a way to get all of my feelings out, and deal with them healthily, as opposed to certain other ways I normally deal with depression.

I'm sorry if anything here sounds totally emo, childish, or flat out retarded. But this is how I feel, and I'm trying my best to get better.

But my best clearly just isn't good enough.

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Yesterday was a little rough. I woke up in a really great mood, and then went out to go grab a book and read at a coffee shop, but then I got into the city, couldn’t figure out where I could park, and then went home after 20 minutes of driving around looking for parking.

It felt really defeating that I couldn’t do something as simple as park in the city.

Then later, I went out with G, V, P and D to go shop, but then it became very clear very quickly that they didn’t want me around. I went and hid in my room afterwards, and V came up and yelled at me because I was being rude to G, who had just popped over to see me.

We watched some DCOMs after that, and I never really ended up feeling better.

Today, I woke up feeling horrifically unattractive and gross, but then I went out with G and D and felt loads better after playing some mini golf.

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