trying to find a reason to wake up every morning.

Hey.

This tumblr is mostly my way of trying to deal with all of my negative feelings. I've been living with some kind of depression most of my life, and it's gotten significantly worse over the past year. I'm trying to use writing as a way to get all of my feelings out, and deal with them healthily, as opposed to certain other ways I normally deal with depression.

I'm sorry if anything here sounds totally emo, childish, or flat out retarded. But this is how I feel, and I'm trying my best to get better.

But my best clearly just isn't good enough.

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Cake decorating went great. I can make some great flowers. I was feeling really good about things until later tonight.

Now I’m just constantly thinking about killing myself. I feel so out of place here in Tylerton. My housemates don’t want me here. I just don’t come even close to belonging here. What the fuck am I doing.

I don’t want to go back to school. I don’t want to see the people from school anymore. I just want to curl up and die. I want to give up. I’m feeling so fucking lonely, and I’m tired of feeling so lonely and so broken.

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