trying to find a reason to wake up every morning.

Hey.

This tumblr is mostly my way of trying to deal with all of my negative feelings. I've been living with some kind of depression most of my life, and it's gotten significantly worse over the past year. I'm trying to use writing as a way to get all of my feelings out, and deal with them healthily, as opposed to certain other ways I normally deal with depression.

I'm sorry if anything here sounds totally emo, childish, or flat out retarded. But this is how I feel, and I'm trying my best to get better.

But my best clearly just isn't good enough.

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I’ve been more depressed today and yesterday than usual. At first this weekend started off pretty well, where I was determined to beat my depression and do all sorts of things like cooking and going to the gym.

Then I lay in bed, and felt very alone. I wanted to cuddle with someone, but I have no one to cuddle with. It seems really stupid, and it is really stupid, but it made me spiral down into depression. I slipped, and ended up hurting myself. However this time, it did little to nothing to help my mood.

I’m writing again, so maybe this will help.

I started talking to V again about my problems. I’m going to try and see if that ever helps anything again.

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